About me

I am usually a positive minded person who can do pretty much anything I put my mind too. But last several years things have spiraled down and pain has set in both emotional and physical. I have always been in and out of hard times and never before have they effected me like they do now.  I have a fall and a year later I have back and hip pain a long with other problems coming up along the way as time goes by.. I am diagnosed with depression, bi polar, then from bi polar to post traumatic stress disorder, and then my immune system is messed up from time to time along with two bulging disks in lower back. I am not candidate for surgery, and can supposedly work with very detailed restrictions such as no standing or sitting for more than 20 minutes at a time, no lifting over 15 pounds, no repetitive reaching/pulling/pushing/stair climbing/bending and no jumping and so on and yet I can find a job that will hire me with these restrictions and living in a small town you can't hide the restrictions as others seem to know all about them.. I have had massage therapy, heat and cold therapy, traction, electronic type therapy that shocks the muscles and so on.. and even had discography and injections and still no relief. I had exercises and tried lots of different types of pain medications, anti inflammatories and muscle relaxers and still no relief. I am supposed to go to a pain specialist to learn how to live with my pain and with pain this severe how do they expect me to do that.. it feels like a broken bone or a bad nerve such as a tooth nerve when you have a broken tooth or a bad tooth that needs to be fixed but stronger. It hurts so bad I get tears in my eyes and my legs start shaking.

Welcome to the You are not Alone blog

With years of experience and seeing how hard it can be being depressed, and feeling down, and alone in the cold world. It does seem as though no one seems to care, or understands the pain and frustration those of us with severe depression have at times.

I have decided to dedicate this website to let others know they are not alone and that if we be strong and help each other maybe one day we can also get others to understand a little better as to what we deal with day in and day out... You can comment, share your thoughts, feelings and so on here as well.. I will be posting my feelings, experiences, thoughts and so on as well...I want others to know I do understand and do care.